how to listen

Stop
Where are you
I'm right here
I know that you want me to be free
But I was made to be a sinner
Only living up to see the beauty
In the rested pleasures of defeat
I made my choice or did it make me
I guess i'm only half a human
Trying to make a beat
Take a seat
I'll tell you how I got depleted
Only seekers make it in this fever dream
I'm peeling off the squeeze
Hell you made me
You fucking thieve
Now listen
Feel it come feel it go
I've been living on my own
I don't want you to cry
I've been in a better light
Trying to take your light
Trying to take your mind
Trying to take your mind
Trying to take your mind
Don't let them take your mind
Feelings come feelings go
And that is inevitable
I've got too many feelings
Healing the weight of it all
I've got problems
Can't solve them
Trying to fix brokenness
I'm sick
I know it
But there you are staring right back at me
Trying to be free but I can't stand the heat
I swear
I can't please
Myself
Might be the last to lay it down
I'm going to lay it down
Might be the last to lay it down but
I'm going to lay it down
Might be the last to lay it down
I'm going to lay it down
Might be the last to lay it down but
I'm going to lay it down
Baby
I'm forced to be reckoned with
I'm blessed in this mess of a world we live
Trying to push past the ick
Because my ego thick
Two C's double D's
I'm a silly bitch
What's wrong with me
I can't get past the heat
What's wrong with me
I can't be free
What's wrong with me
I can't get past the heat
What's wrong with me
I can't be free
What's wrong with me
I can't get past the heat
What's wrong with me
I can't be free