CAVING IN

It seems I talk about the weather once in a while
While I'm trying to find myself
Can't find myself

It seems I overthink just about everything
My friends, too. Scared for my health
Scared for my health

I lost some friends to arguments
I lost some more to heroin
I lost myself in loneliness since I was just a kid

But to have love and to hold it are completely different things
My grip was never strong enough
I learned nothing about me is

I'm caving in
Yeah, I'm caving in
The more I'm keeping it together
The more I fall apart I guess
I'm caving in
Collapse and then just try to try again

It seems I stress about the same shit I tell myself
Was too proud to ask for help
But I need help, my god, I need some help

It seems when I overthink, it's just me against my brain
At war with the way I've felt
Can't help myself, swear I can't help myself

I lost a step in arguments
Cause I found hurt and harnessed it
I lost myself entirely, I don't know where I've been
Don't know where I've been

But to have love is so beautiful, swear I'd give everything
If I could tighten up my grip
Finally be strong enough to live

I'm caving in
I'm caving in
The more I'm keeping it together
The more I fall apart I guess
I'm caving in
Collapse and then just try to try again

Can you see in my face, all the hurt all the shame
Is it trust, is it fate now
Can you see all the ways I've been hiding the pain
Is it love, is it hate now
Can you see in my face, all the hurt all the shame
Is it trust, is it fate now
Can you see all the ways I've been hiding the pain
Is it love, is it hate now

I'm caving in
I'm caving in
The more I'm keeping it together
The more I fall apart I guess
I'm caving in
Collapse and then just try
I'm caving in
Yeah, I'm caving in
The more I'm keeping it together
The more I fall apart I guess
I'm caving in
Collapse and then just try to try again