Where I Want to Be (feat. Matthew Borrego)

These thoughts drown me
I need air
I’m left floating
You’re standing there
Watching closely
A blank stare
Act like
You don’t even fucking care

I swear I’m not okay
Just stay the fuck away

Sometimes I want to blow out my brains in a crowded room
Paint the walls red for all to see
Let their horrified expressions sink into me
Laying down on the ground
Bullet hole through my temple
It’s where I want to be

Guess I was the clown
The center of attention
The conversation piece
Is this where I want to be?

I can’t turn away
Another fucking day

These thoughts drown me
I need air
I’m left floating
You’re standing there
Watching closely
A blank stare
Act like
You don’t even fucking care

Sometimes I want to blow out my brains in a crowded room
Paint the walls red for all to see
Let their horrified expressions sink in me
This is where I want to be