In Vain

I tried to numb it out
I tried to drown it away
I tried to kill it off
I did it all in vain vain in vain
I did it all in vain

Unbelievable inconsolable I'm
Incurable temperamental
I can't help myself someone fix me
Diabolical unsociable I'm
Unenjoyable dysfunctional
I can't fix myself someone help me

I'm falling apart again
I want it all to end
I feel so ashamed so ashamed
There's no one else to blame

All the times I've felt alone
All the self-inflicted pain
All the emptiness inside
I did it all in vain vain in vain
I did it all in vain

Unbelievable inconsolable I'm
Incurable temperamental
I can't help myself someone fix me
Diabolical unsociable I'm
Unenjoyable dysfunctional
I can't fix myself someone help me

Welcome to the nightmare in my head
Welcome to the place of the living dead
There's no recovery there's no living life
Just consistent pain until the day you die