RIGHT BEHIND

I knew a young lady
We used to make out
We used to fuck about
When we fucked around
Seemed the only time she was confident
Lust flowed thru our skin
Love cut us deeper in
Sharper than a poppy pin
Heartbroken like it paper thin
Weed, bitches, whisky, gin
Only way that we could win
Both believed in God, yet we lived in sin
Shared a bottle, loved that cocaine, yeah baby sniff it in
Sniff it in
Surfaced demons now we're crying
Now we're screaming
Now we're laughing
Now we're feeling, nauseous
Who spun the fucking ceiling
Self inflicted cards we're dealing?
Deciders of the very fate we're stealing
From ourselves, sabotaging healing
I'm glad to see you love your kids and now you holding down em demons
Now you're mighty and love has awoken in your heart
I'm glad you're fighting, you ain't self destruct n restart
You deserve that fresh start
With your man and your children
I love them pictures of you smiling and you grinning
It's just a shame we fell apart
Cus you were another work of art
In a world so dark
In a world so scary
In a world so dark
I almost Hail Mary
In a world so dark
I'd love to revisit that cherry
That cocaine rock, supersized berry
Superseding, they glaring
Succeeding, now they staring
Cus we ain't ordinary
Yeah yeah, we ain't
We ain't ordinary
Fucked our feelings
You hopped aboard my ferry
Back when we was breaking
Buried like Pennywise underneath of Derry
Reborn from the ashes like a Phoenix
You fuck with her you fuck with me
Vice versa, we'll flush you like a kleenex
Motherfuckers never seen this
Nightlife, while you dream, bliss
We avoiding our nightmares
Better we thought we'd fare
But we was addicted with our bodies bare
Sex, drink, powder, sin and poison air
Murder the Turtle, inhabit the lair of the Hare
Holes in the walls, we walked tall
Our legs fatigued, if we fall
We acting like we having a ball
Ain't nobody catching on at all
They acting like our problems small
I ain't gonna broadcast your past
But at last I'm writing something that reflects what I seen, how I felt
When we hit our brains with a blast
Powdered like our brain is in a cast yo
Let me paint you a picture
Of a time we was poorer than richer
Kids in care, and a delayed future
I could have been one of the greatest
Ask anyone, the rhymes rolled off the tip of my tongue
Any battle I won, impressing everyone
With how I write a tonne and spit lines, ricka ricka then I went and sniff lines
You could be the best mother, a beautiful lover, wife and tougher, Mila Kunis and Ashton Kutcher
A future you'd almost butchered
With a disease of the mind
Addiction time after time
A constant spiraling circle
Forever losing your mind
We just kept fixing shit then jumping into a landfill of mines
Hit the brakes reverse, yeah rewind
We didn't mean to but our heads just collide
Til the day we left each other's side
Blocked, black mirror style
I went on to confront a pedophile
You went on and learned to smile
Found true love in your very child
Go for it baby, you're amazing
And I'll be right behind