Psalm 131

Another night I’m awake in my bed
There is no sleep in sight with the war in my head
And i find my thoughts rising up instead
Of waiting upon my God

By 3 am I am praying for sleep
For the sun rises soon and I’ve had no relief
Here making war but I’m desperate for peace
And desperate upon my God

Chorus:
But my eyes are not raised too high
And my heart is not lifted up
I will calm and quiet my soul and I believe, help my unbelief

I’m asking what is the meaning of this?
Your thoughts higher than mine but your plan I resist
So I find my thoughts in the shape of a fist
Shaken angrily at my God

Chorus:
But my eyes are not raised too high
And my heart is not lifted up
I will calm and quiet my soul and I believe, help my unbelief

This simple song is my own lullaby
When I find my voice hoarse cause I keep asking why
Less of a question and more of a cry
Of a child to a holy God