Help My Unbelief

[Verse 1]
I get lost in my head and I can't get out
I'm scared of everything now
Where is my assurance? Where is my faith?
I don't remember when it all went away
And I'm not quite sure what to say

[Verse 2]
Never was scared to die and in fact, I was looking forward to it
Now I tense up thinkin' 'bout my next birthday
Never was scared of lyin' in the silence
Now I'm scared to look my God in the face
I'm scared to listen to what He has to say
I'm scared it all don't matter anyway

[Chorus]
Am I cryin' to just the ceilin'?
Or am I cryin' to You?
Feel so far away and so unworthy
I'm scared to listen what You have to say
I'm scared I don't matter anyway
And I'm not quite sure what to say

[Verse 3]
I'm not who I used to be, and I don't know where to go from here
I tried to make my heart believe, shouldn't it be easy?
But I can't turn away for there's no good in the world
I know that life is in Your presence, O Lord
Do You remember me? I'm prayin' that You do
And I'm prayin' that You still love me
It's a crazy life to live, but it is what it is
And it's no good to keep goin' how I am
I don't need false hope, or fairytales or fables
I just need the one true God to live in me
Won't You teach me all Your history?
Won't You show me the way? I plead
Won't You help my unbelief?
Won't You help my unbelief?