Reload
Back in '04 I had that J-Kwon Hood Hop "Tipsy" spinnin'
Walkin' around the projects Walmart Walkman in my pocket grinnin'
Ponderin' quite often how I could mod My profits livin'
Be a God's prophet, It was my Broadcast with no Milonakis in it
I was rockin' with OGz grillin' their Thoughts for knowledge
Momma dropped to her knees, prayin' To that Godly cross for college
I wasn't ready for a politically correct University
I spoke my mind one word at a time With this adept certainty
Couldn't tell me nothin' either I was a Rebel without a cause
My ball-point became lethal, I was a Devil with hellish bars
Hit trouble on several corners but Always reveled in every scar
Tryna bury these demons I had a Shovel in every yard
Seemed like leavin' the apartment was A brawl waiting to happen
I trained and I scrapped and created This rap to replay the action
Tryna create a champion, watchin' Boxin' tapes of Cassius
Me against the planet, across the atlas I Face the madness
Every fucking hater that I've ever Known, can get a telephone
Call someone who cares 'cause I've Never slowed, I just reload
I won't back down, I don't live my life In fear
You can ask around about me if you Doubt me
But I doubt you could walk a mile in These shoes
All the stories that I've told all the pain That I hold
The shame that I've known, but I keep Smiling through
There's only so many times this life Can kick you while you're down
Before you load up that 9 millimeter And tell 'em just pick a round
Most people in this world would Snatch a penny from a blind man
If they thought they could get away With it like skippin' a price scan
And all you little bitches talkin' witty Shit on the internet
Can get your intellectual whig split like Fisticuffs at British Parliament
I'm at the end of my rope but I'm still Reeling asphyxiated
Life won't even grant me "snap" to Help me feel liberated
Sometimes it's like I'm Misery's Paul Sheldon and bed ridden
I've created a monster that comes once In a while to wreck tibulas
Like Anderson Silva gettin' his low Kick checked on the left shin of a
Man who couldn't of beat 'em in his Prime, can't stress it enough
I too am done wrestling with you Fucks, I'm steppin' the clutch
Switch into my gears of war, let's play Epic games just press on some buttons
Got somethin' here for the rest of you Depressed gluttons
Get money like Bezos, Trump, Musk 'n' Company and fuck it
Every fucking hater that I've ever Known, can get a telephone
Call someone who cares 'cause I've Never slowed, I just reload
I won't back down, I don't live my life In fear
You can ask around about me if you Doubt me
But I doubt you could walk a mile in These shoes
All the stories that I've told all the pain That I hold
The shame that I've known, but I keep Smiling through
One reason I'm not in prison is 'cause I've got two little boys
Of course got to set the example in this Void, I haven't got a choice
Even though they're from a past Marriage and I barely see 'em
Their faces return to my graces to Scare off these para demons
Keep the "dark side" at bay of a person Who I once was younger
Strippin' punks to their underwear just Cause they wore the wrong colors
I don't rap about a lot of my Background, I'm dishonored by it
But I'll opt for the sound of silence, some Garfunkel and Paul Simon
These days your more likely to find me Trudgin' through Muddy Waters
Findin' peace in Nirvana, or bridgin' The gap with throwback Nas Products
Tired of bein' surrounded by actors Knowin' they're Alec Baldwins
Some are just playin' sober, them Cowards are actually alcoholics
They may get aw shucks when they see Me with props shinin' brighter
Grindin' tighter, gainin' weight while They're glidin' by lighter
I feel like MJ takin' flight on some Magical shit in Orlando
You Pippens don't have to see me rise, Still live in my shadow
Every fucking hater that I've ever Known, can get a telephone
Call someone who cares 'cause I've Never slowed, I just reload
I won't back down, I don't live my life In fear
You can ask around about me if you Doubt me
But I doubt you could walk a mile in These shoes
All the stories that I've told all the pain That I hold
The shame that I've known, but I keep Smiling through
