The Past

A new beginnings really how this feels for me
But I need a window to the past to heal fully
Growing up always seemed so far away to me
They say that the fact it doesn't last just gives it beauty
But if I had the choice it'd do it all again
And it's not even far away but it feels like the end
And honestly I've always wanted to grow up but that was only till the day where I finally grew up
And everything is changing, the clock keeps on ticking
As I work on this painting, it all starts clicking
That the dreams that are remaining from when we were kidding
Can be turnt to reality with the right bidding
But can I be ready for everything's that's to come
Cause I panic about the future but I need to step up
Does getting older mean that you have to get numb
And it might sound dumb but I'm scared to grow up
I wanna go back through the past, cause it all went by so fast
And I'm scared that all the memories, dreams, and fantasies won't be there to last
And you Always hear, appreciate today
Cause the moment will be gone before you can even say
How much it meant and how you wish you could stay
(How you wish you could stay, how you wish you could stay)
And I once heard, time may change me
But in the end you can't ever trace time
And that's one thing that I need to understand
So I know I'm repeating but there's just so many changes
So when I hear the strings, the piano, and the harp
It all calms down but the clocks still sharp
Feel like the world's about to go dark
Will we lose saturation? Loose to our arc?
Is it the series or the season finale
Cause the show must go on, with or without me
I know it'll continue but it won't be the same
So as the clocks ticks, Will I lose my flame
I wanna go back through the past, cause it all went by so fast
And I'm scared that all the memories, dreams, and fantasies won't be there to last
So I might be dragging on but i think it's worth saying
That everything you hear is leading to something bigger
With what's going on, it might be worth laying
All my thoughts out here, for the bigger figure
It's not that I'm scared to go to through the next step
It's that I'm scared to leave everything I know
As I said in the before, this is all prep
I'm just happy that today, i can finally watch me grow
Grow into the person that I want to be
And now I realize that it's finally time for me
To do something bigger than what I can even think Of
And there's been times where this boat was gonna sink
But I pull it together even when it's on the brink
Of falling apart and seeing everybody drown
So this book might be ending but the stories just beginning
So much more to do, so the voices will keep singing