​falling in love with you

I wish I had all of our memories
The ones that played in my head every day
Somehow from so far away
Waking up beside you and watching your eyes
Lift the light in the room, watching your smile, say the words
The first words of every fire every day
Falling in love with you

I wish I weren’t left with nothing
Nothing at all and everything at the same time
Everything that hurts the most and nothing feels warm
It’s coldest in July