Get to Choose

Since I was prepubescent my life was bleak and hectic
Indeed neglected I never learned how to be connected
Sometimes I wish I became a crooked police detective
So I could reach into my brain and just delete the records

Treated less than by my dad at least he feed and dressed him
My measly essence spent every week just cleaning messes
Hey dad maybe later we could, shut up eat your breakfast
He said he loved me once guess there's no need to readdress it

Egregious lessons taught me that I'm a nuisance
Don't know where I'd be if music never had an influence
Hearing songs that were rooted in the lack of inclusion
Cuz back as a student that's what I stewed in

I guess that was the blueprint to make me this way
And put all this hate on display
Instead of wasting away cradle to grave
Or found in my bath tub filleted with a blade
I just pray that fortune really do favor the brave

But I like me now
This is new
Wish I would stick around
But I don't get to choose
I like me now
This is new
Wish I would stick around
But I don't get to, get to

Choose
Choose
Choose
Choose

When I see that audience I'm not even cognizant
I think bout what i fought against and it raises body temp
Like my flawed attempt to toggle my fathers thoughtfulness
Impossible like toddlers tryna topple an obelisk

And obviously all these atrocities just accumulate
Said I was shit and now I'm just tryna prove I aint
So we got a problem if you don't think that I'm truly great
I want all the static like ghosts tryna communicate

They sleepin' on me like they bedridden
These the best writtens
Y'all needed a spark I'm the electrician
I'm seeing red like I'm set trippin'
If you can't take the heat stay up out the chef's kitchen

My neck's itching my foot's tapping
Cuz they just look past us
And acting okay with that shit really took practice
I wanna tap ya shoulder just so that ya look backwards
And hit that pretty jaw with a hook leave a good fracture

I wonder would natural, causes be better
Then calling' a reunion just so I can share all these letters
Just to set this shit on fire so we all together
Cuz every time i close my eyes it is all I remember

But I like me now
This is new
Wish I would stick around
But I don't get to choose
I like me now
This is new
Wish I would stick around
But I don't get to, get to

Choose
Choose
Choose
Choose