Own Worst Enemy

Disaster is a magnet
And she's pulling me close
Drank the holy water
Till I turned to a ghost
Come on now
Come on now
Come on now, who's to blame?
I got what I wanted
But I still feel afraid

Always looking outside of myself to the end of the earth
To the bottom of hell, well
Never seeing what's actually there staring back in the mirror
'Cause I'm the real devil

I'm my own most worst enemy, I know that, I know that, I know that
I'm my own most worst enemy, I know that, I know that, I know that
Wanna be a good guy, baby so bad, so bad, so bad
I'm my own most worst enemy, I know that

Trouble is my lover
And she lives with mе now
Gave her ultimatums
But she still won't movе out
Come on now
Come on now
Come on now, who's to blame?
Wish that I was different
But it's too hard to change!

Always looking for a logical cause is it deep in my bones
Is it bigger than god, well
Never seeing what's actually there staring back in the mirror
'Cause I'm the real devil

I'm my own most worst enemy, I know that, I know that, I know that
I'm my own most worst enemy, I know that, I know that, I know that
Wanna be a good guy, baby so bad, so bad, so bad
I'm my own most worst enemy, I know that

Always feeling like I made a mistake like I'm dropping the ball
Found the worst thing to say, ya
Never feeling like I'm getting ahead like I'm doing my best
'Cause someone did better
Now I'm seeing that I'm fine 'cause I fucked up before
Oh but I'm still alive, ya
Now I'm seeing I don't have to implode I'm beginning to know
I don't have to be the devil

I'm my own most worst enemy, I know that, I know that, I know that
I'm my own most worst enemy, I know that, I know that, I know that
Wanna be a good guy, baby so bad, so bad, so bad
I'm my own most worst enemy, I know that

Cmon now, cmon now, cmon now
Who's to blame?