4 Years

Four years ago, I was way different from now
Young and naive, now I'm wondering how
How do I go on when this is all that I know?
That's what I used to ask myself

Cause these are the walls that were my home for four years
And these were the walls that knew my darkest of fears
Yet somehow they always gave me shelter and security
Though misplaced it may be

This was my home, this was my shelter
I have learned my lessons, it's time to move on now
You held my heartaches, you held my triumphs
I've done my time now I'm forced to move on now
I move on now

Though the word has changed meaning, this is where I first fell in love
Though things get harder, at the time, this is where I struggled the most
And this is the place where I always had to fight with my conscience

I guess I should thank you for all of the good times
I guess I should thank you for all of the trials
I guess I should thank you for all that you taught me
Yeah, ha, I guess that's a lot of things

So thank you for blessing me with people with wisdom
So thank you for giving me good friends that would listen
And thank you for the people who do not control me

Cause sometimes my safest place wasn't at home
Sometimes my safest place wasn't in working
But sometimes you gave me a place where I'm not lonely

Yeah, it's crazy how time flies
Years into moments that pass by
I wish I'da savored it and I woulda known
That it's all gone in the blink of an eye
I know I should thank you
For all that you gave me
But sometimes it's hard to look past
All of the pain that you gave me
Yeah, I was forced to get stronger
I was forced to wear a mask and push harder
I was taught to be different, until I found the real me
I'm not saying that I know who I am yet, but
I'm sure as hell close, and at least
I know myself better now than before I came here