Lock & Load

From the bottom to the top I stay on it
There's more to me behind the surface like a car bonnet I
Feel like I've been through a war, but, been far from it
Just a turbulent ride with one big broken promise
Don't serve me Gin & tonic, nah
I need more than that
Don't serve me failure, cos nah I didn't order that
I deserve more than I deserve to get
The credit don't count unless it comes with a cheque
I don't mean no disrespect, I'm just saying how I feel breathing don't come easily if you ain't securing the bill so, from my will, daily my prayers guide me so Ima never fall on my own, he right beside me
I just don't know what do now
Soon as I get in, I get thrown out Don't even think I fit in, in my own house
Guess I'm on my own now, it's me against the world now
I'm locking and loading, I'm shooting
I'm locking and loading, I'm shooting
I'm locking and loading, I'm shooting
Forever be a pain in the game I'm a nuisance I know that I born to do 1 thing, be myself, and at that I'm the king so if you ever sitting down in the dumps just remember that, we only here once, I'm at, square one again, never thought I'd be here
Living on the edge but living without fear
How can I?
The pressure's loading, got people moaning
Im tryna shut everything out, get in my own zone and kill it, but it's hard, cause realty is closing in
I can't change the clock, because, you didn't know me then the truth is, I'd take music over money any day, but music don't pay the bills, so I'll forever say I just don't know what do now
Soon as I get in, I get thrown out Don't even think I fit in, in my own house
Guess I'm on my own now, it's me against the world now
I'm locking and loading, I'm shooting
I'm locking and loading, I'm shooting
I'm locking and loading, I'm shooting
Forever be a pain in the game I'm a nuisance I stand alone now, kinda like a free for all
But I'm motivated, watch me go and climb the tallest wall
Nothing is impossible as long as I am standing tall
Nothing is impossible I know that I ain't gonna fall
Cause I'm bulletproof, confidence is confident And if I got that then it's clear man it's obvious That there's no stopping this, as long as I got a lot to give
And trust me I got enough for anybody watching this
I'm tryna open new doors and new avenues
What's done is done, time to face up to the truth that mistakes were made, locked up in the cage too shy to say what's on my mind, I was afraid and the truth is I still am, I don't know what I'm doing
I got a dream but, don't know how to get it to em, But I just put one foot in front of the other
And pray, that one day, Ima get to see another I just don't know what do now
Soon as I get in, I get thrown out Don't even think I fit in, in my own house
Guess I'm on my own now, it's me against the world now
I'm locking and loading, I'm shooting
I'm locking and loading, I'm shooting
I'm locking and loading, I'm shooting
Forever be a pain in the game I'm a nuisance