Talk to Me Before I Die

It's hard to feel
Easy to kill, hard to deal
Easy to give up, hard to build
Easy to break down, ease up, run the fees up
With my feet up in the Fiat, let my brain rot
Feel the raindrops in my tank top
And I can't stop and I can't move
When I wake up and I break up
And I say stuff that was never meant to see the daylight
I realize that I demonized you when I blamed my problems on you
It was always me, I'm uncomfortable in my skin when I'm not with you
I feel like I'm walkin' in circles, what's my purpose? Brand new whips and purses
Beggin' my baby don't hurt me like I hurt you, yeah

Sing to me a lullaby, talk to me before I die
Question my emotions, I'm so sick from all the notion that
Ending this sounds easy, maybe I'll end up on TV
I can't seem to find the meaning, I can't seem to find the meaning
I wanna feel alive, how do I tell these lies?
How do I look at you and tell you that I feel alright?
Don't wanna hurt this way, do I deserve to stay?
Do my apologies mean anything to you today? (Yeah)

It's hard to feel alive
It's easy to wanna die
It's hard to look at my reflection
Easy to grip that Smith & Wesson
Easy to fuck that bitch, no question
Easy to get my dick hard
It's easy to get real pissed off
It's hard to quit my day job
It's easy to pop pills, skip meals
Get fucked up, tucked under covers
Never leaving my dojo where I stay solo
When I feel safest and I'm less anxious
Begging for someone to save me
'Cause most of the homies around me forsake me lately
Creepin' on me when the sun go down, so shaded
No surprise it don't faze me, yeah

Sing to me a lullaby, talk to me before I die
Question my emotions, I'm so sick from all the notion that
Ending this sounds easy, maybe I'll end up on TV
I can't seem to find the meaning, I can't seem to find the meaning
I wanna feel alive, how do I tell these lies?
How do I look at you and tell you that I feel alright?
Don't wanna hurt this way, do I deserve to stay?
Do my apologies mean anything to you today?