Self-Destruction

I'm so scared
Falling way too fast
All I fear
Is not if this will last

[Verse 1]
Intoxication got me thinking
I'm not one for drinking
I've been baby-teething
All my reasons for you leaving
Choking up but never good enough
You said that I would self-destruct
But I can't find the time to relapse
If I ain't sobered up

[Verse 2]
Pour another shot in my cup
Don't give me time to think
I've been busy staying dizzy
All I do is think
Fucking drowning in this quick sand
I made my home
And stop lying to myself that I'll die alone
Yeah

Finally realized
That I just need a hug

[Verse 3]
Let me fucking be alone
Let me fucking be alone
I don't need you in this megaphone screaming
"I fucked up"
Like I don't know I fucked up
I was happier together
Now I'm happy that we're up
I felt the pressure build around me cause I told you how I felt
Felt the distance grow between us cause your bruises weren't for show and tell
And I can tell
You never opened up cause you were scared as fuck
And I was scared as fuck that was never honest enough