Scars

I've been trying to stay away from mirrors
Guess I'm way too scared to face my fears
They ain't nothing scarier than the not
Knowing if you know yourself
Speak my emotions I just hope it helps
Sometimes I think about my life and search for the meaning
Looking for temporary angels in permanent demons
Sometimes these people call me family just for their convenience
Take me for granted, while I'm here
Then they get hurt when I'm leaving
Leaving all my reasons to kill in a box beside me
If you choose to open, embrace yourself. but don't try me
Cause I don't wanna turn to that person that's so unlike me, but
Fuck with my family
I guarantee, I won't take it lightly
I might a little different now, it's different now
The love we had was toxic so we keep our distance now
We used to wanna ride for each other, die for each other
Now we point the fingers, say names and lie to each other
So it's, fuck love and I'll numb the pain with this hennessy
I hurt the people who always ended up forgiving me
All this money brought the faker people to me
And most the ones I truly love just haven't spoken to me
But as of lately