The Problem with You

It’s not the things you did back when we were kids
It’s not the way that you died it’s the way that you lived
It’s the gifts you had to give and your generous soul
It was big brother jedi knight mind control

Had me spellbound idolizing you and your friends
Made you tell me all the same jokes again and again
And as I rewind time to way back then
I recall what it was about you

The problem with you is no one else will do

It’s more than thirty years now that you’ve been gone
And it’s taken me that long to write this song
I understand your actions whether right or wrong
But that doesn’t help me move on or be strong

I remember when the cops came to our front door
Telling us they found your body but they weren’t sure
Had to check the dental records to make an exact match
Nineteen months of questions answered just like that

The problem with you is no one else will do

The problem with you is there’s no one else like you

The problem is I can’t get you out of my mind
Even after all this time
People tell me let you go but I don’t know how
I have nightmares can’t seem to slow those down

I’ve been to the woods where you did the deed
And found more of your remains there beneath the trees
I confess I have a vertebrae of yours in a drawer
It’s morbid for sure but it’s you and it’s pure

I’ve been a hot mess ever since you left
Post traumatic stress or just depressed I guess
I try to hide behind hard work and jokes
On bad days they go up in smoke

Honestly it’s fucked up the way it all went down
With no answers or closure or peace to be found
The problem isn’t just your decision to quit
The problem is you left me here to live with it

The problem with you is there’s no one else like you