Anxiety Interlude

In the cut smoking on excellent
Can't let 'em into my head again
Anxiety, cuz I won't take my medicine
I'm fine please don't ask if I'm upset again
Still running through my mind
I can't put lead in it

And I'm screaming out fuck medicine
Bullet to my brain, The thought of being dead is a little more settling
But I can't go through with it, Wish that I wasn't so hesitant
I don't really want to die, But I've never felt like this
Really wanna cry, But all this time I just held it in
Picked up the phone, got the number and I rang my specialist
He trying to give me pills again
I don't really know how I feel for this
Feeling so good one minute, next minute I'm pissed again

So I'm in the cut and I'm smoking on excellent
Can't let 'em into my head again
Anxiety, cuz I won't take my medicine
I'm fine please don't ask if I'm upset again
Still running through my mind
I can't put lead in it