Cold Water

The freshness of the air feels foriegn to my aching heart
The sunlight burns the layers I’ve built up within this paper cup
Damn straight, I haven’t earned that much. There’s nothing I can take
Police are roving in my veins, a venom coursing, yearning hatred

It’s second nature now to think myself a traitor
To myself, to all I’ve ever burdened with my rotting visage
I can’t breathe, the weight of all I’ve disappointed crushes me
If I were happy it would feel as if I couldn’t trust me

Don’t care. You could be smiling if you wanted to
You could be driving, could be flying if you wanted to
You hear that noise? You hear that screaming? That’s your voice
Trapped inside, you could take it out to cry if you wanted to

Why fight? I’d like to think I’m on my side
But nothing that I’ve thought today has let me think I’m right
You hear that sound? Or is your coursing blood too loud?
Will your better sense come out or will you be alone tonight

Don’t microwave your milk too long, it browns and bubbles over
Don’t let anyone see into you, don’t let them see your need
I burned a forest down for this, I must have something to show for it
But alas, the stars don’t feel like smiling upon me

It’s second nature now to think myself a traitor
To myself, to all I’ve ever burdened with my rotting visage
I can’t breathe, the weight of all I’ve disappointed crushes me
If I were happy it would feel as if I couldn’t trust me

Don’t care. You could be smiling if you wanted to
You could be driving, could be flying if you wanted to
You hear that noise? You hear that screaming? That’s your voice
Trapped inside, you could take it out to cry if you wanted to

Why fight? I’d like to think I’m on my side
But nothing that I’ve thought today has let me think I’m right
You hear that sound? Or is your coursing blood too loud?
Will your better sense come out or will you stay alone tonight

There’s a pin-light shining out in the mountains
Can’t you see?
It flutters in and out of vision
In a hue I can’t quite place

There’s a humming in the air here
Listen close
It’s like a warmth spreading through me
Through the canyons of my mind

The flowers seem so vivid way out there
Beyond regret
I see a gradient from greyscale
Leading into rainbow’s end

The land of milk and honey is in reach
It seems so close
I only need to touch the grass
And I’ll be one of them

Oh God I swear, don’t fail me now
The light is here
I can’t forget what it feels like
Just to act as I belong

Goddamnit I can’t take this anymore
I’m stepping out
I only hope that the sunlight hasn’t
Left while I was gone

Oh God I swear, don’t let me down
You’re all I have
I can’t forget what it feels like
To be loved and taken in

I used to love the scent of rainfall in the dawn
The touch of sun
I only hope there’s something left here
Something left for me to hold