What I Think Im Really Meant For

How many times can I spin in this circle
Wound me up instantly, now I'm twisted and purple
Got no life left, confident in my steps
But it's probably because I'm dead
Look, I ain't writing just to make sense
Time is mad strange but it seems to keep us waiting
In time we all decay like the bodies in the basement
Don't speak or be afraid I know the devil out there waiting
The Way I'm dodging death left them saying yea it's amazing
Time is our downfall but it's god's occupation
Worshipping the minutes yea we get that it´s been taking
I will fall asleep in the end let god take them
If I heal of death that's a break there´s no mistaking
Let me catch my breath for the times we've been forsaken
Bring us all to tears the lies will not change it
I'm out here showing work putting dents in my back bone
And to my best friend been a shoulder they could lean on
I keep myself from over doing what I think I'm really meant foh
Who else is influenced by the words they all preach on?
Twist me up inside, blur between the lines
Can't be this surprised, when it happens I might die
But ok, I don´t care
If it happens I´m ok, I`m going my way
Mama please don´t cry, we make it to the sky
High above the light, when I tell you to be fine
You gon be ok, some days still grey
Sun gon shining in your face, we´ll see again
Asking where is the issue, it feels like nothing is real
But baby sometimes I miss you, but I don´t tell how I feel
Driving fast cars, nascar
Drunk again like bad moms
I´m too fucked to wake up
Yea I think I break up
Why you do me like that, if you didn't love me
You don´t have to say it back, I´m working to be free
I'm out here showing work putting dents in my back bone
And to my best friend been a shoulder they could lean on
I keep myself from over doing what I think I'm really meant foh
Who else is influenced by the words they all preach on?