Dead For Days

This is where the cop said his head hit
He'd been dead for days, eighteen hours away
I didn't see him but Tim did
That part hadn't changed since we were kids

Now I've got friends that don't know me
A wife that's disowned me
You in concept only to miss
And I've been sober for over two weeks

The only thing I learned from that man is I'd rather be estranged than next of kin

This is where my rock bottom is
It's a short fall from grace from such a tiny stage
I can't believe the lies that my mouth spit
I can't believe she stayed as long as she did

I'm so over being sober
My needs are in me, not the drink

I'm riding a fine line
An accidental overdose or suicide
Tell my mom she was right along
and tell my kids this is where my head hit

This is what a life in flux looks like
I ain't got a bed to rest my head
This is how I hide from a guilt that won't subside
I ain't got a good reason for leaving