Eighteen and Dumb

Everything's changing
Everybody comes and goes
Everyone is slowly dying
Where we're going no one knows
Sitting on a plane and waiting
Stealing my ass somewhere far away
I know it's hopeless but I'm still trying
To wear a smile and act brave
Just like Mama wanted
I think my new house is haunted
But everything's scary when you're eighteen and dumb
And everything hurts when you can't get numb
I don't look around me
I've got no friends that make me smile
Sometimes I think someone's found me
So I bite my tongue and act nice for a while
Just like Mama wanted
I think my new house is haunted
But everything's scary when you're nineteen and dumb
And everything hurts when you can't get numb
Everything I learned was wrong
Everyone I loved is gone
And every day feels like the last day of my life
And every waking moment I'm struggling to find a reason to stay alive
Why is misery my only god damn friend
And why does everyone always leave me in the end
And just like I feared
It's so fucking cold here
What's the point of love when you're twenty and dumb
What's the point of a drink when you can't get numb
I hate this place
I can't fucking take this place
What's the point of a fuck if you can never love
What's the point of a life when you're hopelessly young