To My Ex

A letter to anonymous
Hope you well
Would've said yo name but
You know I don't kiss and tell
And you know me well enough
To put the pieces in the places you feel they dwell
Same way you put me on the shelf
Next to mental health
And yo troubled childhood that I helped create
That was my mistake
Not much we can do with this hand we dealt
When it's time to play
I'm sorry that you didn't get the picket fences right out the gate
I'm sorry that I met you through superficial means
And I'm sorry that I'm still sorry after weeks upon weeks
From my knees so weak to we hardly can speak
From we lose all control in these moments
You own me and never let me go till yo love took over me
When I was making promises I knew I never could keep
And running mouths had some secrets to leak
And I was stuck between the lines
Like don't read
Conversations in sheets
I don't want to keep in touch if I can't keep you in reach
And that's real
Too real
Not like the blue pill
Like them pills that you took when we was on plan Z
When we started talking bout family and obligations
That's when I packed my bags and across the nation

I found myself
But you found somebody else
I ain't need nobody else
I was going out alone
You brought someone else along
That's a trip, I was gone
It's so crazy how it goes
But I still go with the flow

As the ship break
Still hope that you make it safe
Only got one takeaway
Way too many mistakes
Scars that last eternally
Memories that fadeaway
Stuck up in this mood meaning a couple things never change
Always feel like April showers just another rainy day
I might go to Vancouver cause I need to getaway
And that's not a random place
Kiss and tell, I never say
Young heart throbs just
Hoping that they never break

That's why it's crush right
We can't get enough I
Had you feeling down bad
Now you acting up tight
I can't make this up but I bet I make you blush
Why did you give in
Why did we give up
We was more than friends
Didn't need a title
Promise ain't judge cause you didn't read a Bible
That was not the point
That was just a touch
In over our heads
Did I over step
Did He over see

I wonder bout it
What's the missing piece
We so childish was it really meant to be
Or was it as simple as sitting in a tree
K.I.S.S.I.N.G
And picking leaves like
Do you love me or love me not
In yo heart you still love me cause it ain't no room doubt
No you never moved me out there's just intruders in the house
Wasn't lying when you said I'm the one you can't live without

And that's why you listen now
Listen well, smile
We don't gotta talk
I know I make you proud
I'm sending hugs and kisses
Cause you know I miss you
To my Ex
Omega initials
P.S.
Please
Keep this between us
I got more to say
But now I'll keep it
Respond when you can
I hope you well
But until then
Note to myself
Mega