​desynced lyrics

Spent an hour trying to write a text
To the only person who knows what’s next
Cuz recently I just feel so sad
Wanna leave, and I'm never coming back

Could you tell me what it means to be me?
All I ever wanted was to be free
Couldn’t stick around to sync the lyrics
I really hope that they forgive me

Don’t wanna hear that I’m loved
Cuz I’m not. I’m just another fuck up
And if you think I’m better off alive
Swear I’m not, will you please shut the fuck up?

Could you tell me what it means to be me?
All I wantеd was to be free
Couldn’t stick around to sync the lyrics
I really hopе that they forgive me