Disillusionment

another night darkens the sky
while i watch in horror as it smothers the light
how many more still i have left?
how much longer shall i hide from myself?

i swallowed my pride and faced the truth
i stared at my reflection
i cannot shed my skin or change my shape anymore
i'm out of second chances

there's no point in running away once again
there's no more new beginnings
the rot is inside me, it's here to stay
inevitable and unforgiving

for every step that i take on this way
i hear a thousand doors closing
no matter what choice i make
it all will turn to dust

close my eyes and fade away
no matter what i did, all i've got was nothing
when everything's for naught
one's no more than zero

all i build will fall apart
all i love will disappear
all my hate is not enough
there will be nothing but decay

all my hate is not enough
all my hate is not enough