Lucid

These days I been dreamin' vivid
I know I been keepin' distance
Feels like I'm in the backseat of my mind
And I can't take the wheel even if I tried
I- I feel like I'm losing my mind
I-I can't even feel sometimes
I don't have to feel
Cause I know that it's real
When's the last time that I sat back
Pressure on my shoulders like a mother fuckin' backpack
Women from back home be actin' like a fuckin' rat pack
Niggas always tellin' me I need to fuckin' clap back
But I ain't got no time for that
Cause I'm searchin' for god
And confidence
Can't show that I'm tired
My daughter's watchin' me
When the dust settles and the clouds part
What do you have left?
When all the people you loved before you loved before yourself leave
Who do you have left?
When all the friends who ain't really friends
Show their true colors
Where can you turn next?
I wish I loved me as much as I love you
Wish I loved gray skies as much as I love blue