Not Today

I'm feeling sad from days long gone
Like we did something wrong to make them move along
And in my head my memories they play on endlessly like movies
And it feels like it did seven years ago or yesterday
Can't tell the difference and I can't make out the shapes
This is insane and I'm still searching for what matters
And I'm not sure if I'll find it but I hope I do someday
There was a time when I wouldn't admit my mistakes
But not today
Today I'm easy
And it's good you got me
Right where you want me
Was there a time when life was ever easy?
Or maybe that was just a story that they told to appease me
But lesson learning comes a little harder to me than to most
And if you need the proof
I'll point you to the time I swear I saw a ghost
That was the past and I'm pretty sure this is now - now!
And holy cow let's go, let's make the most of
Every day we have to learn a better way to be
And that the past mistakes we've made
They don't define us completely
Those were the days when I'd rather be running away
I'm not sure I know anything like I thought I knew before
I thought I understood myself and I always wanted more
But not today
Today I'm easy
And it's good you got me
Right where you want me
And that's okay
Today I'm easy
And it's good you got me
Right where you want me
Let's go!!