headache

Same night every night everyday
Thinking back what I've done ok
If I was happy or afraid
Or did I for god sake
Did the same shit again
Am I pushing too much
Am I doing too little
I look at the clock
Still so much time till tomorrow
And I ask myself
Did I fuck it up again
No one answers cause
No one's there anymore
New friend new person new opportunity
Same cycle like the last time I got on my knees
Need to learn that I don't know everyone's head
Could happy but also could be sad and almost dead
Could be friendly but also could be mad
Could be humble, funny, fearless, keen
Arrogant, rude, unfriendly, mean
Where to look or where to be
I'm not able to see all of these
Everytime everyday it's the same
Guess no one's ever gonna be ok
Hard to accept but you don't just turn
Still got a whole life only to learn
Don't know where to start can't get any help
I have to get it on all by myself
Is it just me or does everyone else
Knows what to do when you know how they felt
Then I ask myself did I fuck it up again
No one answers cause no one's there anymore
New friend new person new opportunity
Same cycle like the last time I got on my knees
Need to learn that I don't know everyone's head
Could happy but also could be sad and almost dead
Could be friendly but also could be mad
Could be humble, funny, fearless, keen
Arrogant, rude, unfriendly, mean
Where to look or where to be
I'm not able to see all of these