Chaos

It's just different
Upset the established order, and everything becomes chaos
I'm an agent of chaos
Oh, and you know the thing about chaos, it's fear

I'm 'onna keep it a hunnid
I feel like I'm being hunted
So paranoid, you would think I was blunted
I'm hearin' voices that's comin' from under my bed
In my head, and I'm under the covers, uh-whut!

Peek out the sheets, and the first thing I see
Is these shadows in every direction
Know they from Hell, in fact, threw out the welcome mat
But they keep comin' back, pressin' my chest in (uhg-hk)

What you know 'bout sleep paralysis? (Huh?)
Promise you, I don't imagine this (no)
Promise, yo' ass couldn't handle this
For a day, let alone, long as I managed this
No, no, no, no

You dealin' with typical shit
I'm over here, dealin' with slittin' my wrists
And that's just the damn tip of this shit
Sick of this shh-

They don't know what's comin' next from me (no)
They don't know what to expect from me (whoa)
I don't know what you expect from me (I don't)
I don't know why you keep testin' me (I don't)
Keep sayin' my name is blasphemy (Mesus!)
Keep sayin' God won't keep blessin' me (Jesus!)
Destiny, this what it has to be
Guess I'll be causin' some chaos, like aye-aye

I'm 'onna keep it a thousand, I ain't alone in this house
I walk out a room, but I keep hearin' shouting
And I'ma need more than a couch and a counselor
I need a bouncer, rah!

But, since you know everything
And you think that my depression, no sweat
Then okay, let me ask you a question
How many times in your life have you seen a knife?
And thought suicide was doin' right, so end it, huh?

I'm guessin', none, like not even once
Me, it's a ton, like 30 a month
Like everyday, you think this a game?
You think this shit fun? Huh, huh, huh?

Fuck you know 'bout fightin' for your life, for your whole life?
But if you know 'bout that, then know that I'm with you
And know that there's healin', 'aight? You feelin' me, right?

They don't know what's coming next from me (no)
They don't know what to expect from me (whoa)
I don't know what you expect from me (I don't)
I don't know why you keep testin' me (I don't)
Keep sayin' my name is blasphemy (Mesus!)
Keep sayin' God won't keep blessin' me (Jesus!)
Destiny, this what it has to be
Guess I'll be causin' some chaos, like aye-aye!

I'm 'onna keep it a milli', nobody, really, man, really
Y'all silly, killin' me, ha, you killin' me
I'm 'onna climb in my head, and dead all of these voices that's talkin' shit

I mean that literally, I'm the epitome of pure insanity
You can get rid of me, but you can't handle me
I look like a kid, but you ain't half as man as me
Are you dumb mothafuckers understanding me?

Sorry, got out the wrong side of bed, today
Sorry, I forgot to take my meds, today
Sorry, that makes a decade, now
But what's a doctor know?
When I'm jottin' rhymes on doctor's notes, woo (woo)

Guess it's 'bout time to go
I'm out of breath, fuck, I need cardio
But what good is breathin'?
If you don't believe there's a reason?
I'm outta here, adios
They don't know what's comin' next from me
Oh, shit