Over My Head

How to cope with what you gave me
They're only day dreams until they're not
And now I know the facts were fiction
It was not distance that I needed at all

But I was in over my head when I touched your arm
And I never knew it would lead to anything more

And how this goes, it is not my business
I did not ask for this beating heart
But now I know the facts were mistakes
And they're always mistakes until they're art

But I've been in over my head since I learned how to talk
And I'll be in over my head until death comes a'calling

I think I'm losing my mind
I can't tell the difference between real and pretend
From the elephant in the corner, the creak in the floorboards, or the ATM
But I was in over my head before I walked through the door
And I shouldn't even be in this room alone

And lately I have been, surrounded by friends and so alone
I had to go to California to realize I didn't wanna come home

But I'll be in over my head whether I'm here or not
Chasing a new life or mourning a loss
Wasting my time trying to read with the radio on
So I'll just pretend like I never said nothing at all