Find Myself

[Intro: ]
Girl on phone: Hello?
Hey, I saw what you were um
Posting on twitter I'm really worried about you I just
Just talk to me, I know..
I know its hard but, please? Can you?
What's wrong? What's wrong with you?

Matt Houston: Do you really want to know?

[Verse 1: Matt Houston]

I'm a product of depression and often hitting a dead end/
Not enough of those moments where minutes feeling like seconds/
And anything more than friendship, always seems I regret it/
Cause those who I gave my heart took and used it as a weapon/
Damn, the same girl I used to think was the best is/
The one who took my happiness kept the Tiffany necklace/
This is irony at its finest, and what I found is when its/
Right what you do wrong is the only thing you get left with/
Unless you hit a jackpot get a one in a million person
Who's worth it for certain won't hurt you when everything worsens/
When people ask "How you doing?" you always sure its working/
No fighting, conflicts, it just works ain't gotta put no work in/
But, I'm stuck here fighting with the man in the mirror/
And when I see my reflection don't understand why I tear up/
The image of me is so hazy I wish it would come in clearer/
Guess its easy to break your heart when you're the one you're in fear of/

[Hook: Matt Houston]
I wish this rainy day would fade away/
Please before I go insane/
It never changes every day/
I wake up see its all the same/
State of mind in a place that's right by hell/
I get lost in these thoughts tryna find myself/
Cry for help no answers guess I'm by myself/
While I get lost in these thoughts tryna find myself/

[Verse 2: Caskro]

See normally, y'all expect me to kill it like its ordering/
Sweet tea I keep it alive like I'm torturing/
I'm gonna explode like I'm forcefully/
Having sexual intercourse with a mortar team/
There's more to me, than fucking girls and fighting every wannabe/
Who's saying that I'm flowing horribly/
I fell in love with a whore that clings, more than any girl
She ain't a girl but no homo I mean/ (Fuck, Fuck)
Fuck everyone of you who think its cool to have a problem/
Popping pills 'till my zombie body turns to goblin/
Talk to me when its hard to breath and your legs are wobbling/
Cause for me they're blisters the way to heal is to fucking pop em/
You take two and say you fucked up
I need sixteen to even get a buzz son I fucked up/
Kill yourself before you take one if you have a chance/
Kill yourself before you take one if you have a chance/

[Hook]