If Only

I shouldn't look for someone like you
Who daydreams too much about wasting their youth
And I shouldn't care, and I shouldn't care, but I do
And I shouldn't stay up until 2 AM
Hopelessly wondering what I can mend
And I shouldn't care, and I shouldn't stare, but I do

And if only I was somebody you wanted
Just for the day, but you wanted
Someone you know that wouldn't leave
I know that's never been me

Strange how you don't know just how I think
'Cause I read your mind like it's written with ink
Scribbles and mess, but lines that still play with my heart

And if only I was somebody you wanted
Just for the day, but you wanted
Someone you know that wouldn't leave
I know it's not what you need

I wrote your name seventeen times
Just to figure out when, figure out why
And it's starting again, it's strange, I don't know
Why you would stay if you knew you would go
And you called out to me, desperately weak
With something to say, if you only could speak
And I tried to pretend, I just can't deny
That I'd lie just for you if you passed me tonight

If only I was somebody you wanted
Just for the day, but you wanted
Someone you know that wouldn't leave
I know that'd never be me
I know that'd never be me