Lonely

I’m lonely, I could turn a W to an L
I’m lonely, I could take something wonderful
 make it hell
I been tryna fill a void I don’t understand
I don’t know it's shape eyes closed
Tryna fit different shit in this empty space
To no avail,  I’m lonely, it’s cold as hell
In the part of my soul where
Love and the noble notions dwell
I’m lonely, I don’t get what I’m looking for
But I search on tryna make a map of places
Where I’ve never gone
I’m lonely, shit ain’t everybody?
I wash my head with this human condition
But I don’t feel cleansed I feel lonely yo
Been avoiding time with myself, and
Now I owe me, though
Every time we together I
Focus on something phoney, i’m lonely
But I don’t wanna settle
Sometimes I’d rather be unhappy
Than to be alone
Tell myself I need to bone but truth
Is that I need a home
I been rationalizing time that’s spent with
People that don’t inspire me
Bein’ lonely sucks I’m startin' to
Lose my spirit’s trust
Scared of what I want I been
Starting to fear my lust
If i can’t tell myself the whole
Truth than the lyrics must
Like i should come here to stroke but
I know I came here to bust
Man made most of my woes be
Feel like we do half what
We do ‘cause we bored, we just be lonely
I feel like most people’d rather use
Me than to know me
I feel like I’m a bitch cuz i
Got it good but be feeling bad
And cockiness is just fear in drag
I see a lot of Ru Pauls of emotions
I say i ain’t judgin’ a lot
But I do and I know it
Wish I was more easy going
Maybe I wouldn’t feel lonely
But sometimes we ain't inclined to be
The men we wanna be
Like shit, without this critical lens
I couldn’t see but i don’t know
Cuz theres a lot of things
I thought i couldn’t be
And I’m starting to become all them
Maybe theres hope for us
This the most self involved and
The most communal rhyme
We all in search of people who can relate
Their absence negative space
Shit without em there is no alone
So i know they out their fo’
Me or I wouldn’t feel lonely i remember
When it wasn’t cool to feel lonely
Then somewhere along the way kid
Cudi made it ok
But now we fetishize it it’s a
Style to be tried n’
Take this pill if you don’t like it
You don’t have to feel lonely
And that ain't never been me
But i ain't that far
Buzz buzz goes the sound
Of the anti-depressant
Notifications, I’ma need me three
Grams of some mentions
Tell me you like the online me so
The real me don’t feel so lonely
I’m jus being real homie
This ain't a sad song
This ain’t a mad song, but i do worry
‘cause, I been tryna write some
Next level shit lately and this is it
So I’m scared that my loneliness makes me
Like do i need it to shine
What if I leave it behind
Will i die young if I continue
To just bleed from my mind
And I guess thats something only
Time can show me for now I gotta go
Shit I’m late to meet the homies lonely