​what i’m afraid of

[Pre-Chorus]
Have I become what I'm afraid of?
Have I become what I despise?
Have I turned into my nightmare
Right here, in front of our eyes?

[Verse 1]
Calling me up, here we are now
Building me up when I'm breaking you down
I'd be a better person if I only knew how
Someone you'd pick in every crowd
Push you away, break you apart
'Cause maybe it'll help my shattered heart
I've always been the problem, this isn't thе start
Always been the toy that you discard

[Pre-Chorus]
Have I becomе what I'm afraid of?
Have I become what I despise?
Have I turned into my nightmare
Right here, in front of our eyes?

[Chorus]
'Cause everyone sees right through me
But they only see to my facade
I can deal with ripping apart projections
But can't let them see that I'm flawed
I'd rather break myself to pieces
Than let anyone do it first
I'm drowning myself trying to stay afloat
And dying just brings out my worst

[Verse 2]
Doing my best, kissing you right
Sleeping beside you, happy at night
The nightmares always come out and bite
Worrisome thoughts are hard to fight
Trying so hard, staying so strong
'till something too heavy comes along
When I try to fight it it's already gone
And I end up thinking that it belongs

[Pre-Chorus]
Have I become what I'm afraid of?
Have I become what I despise?
Have I turned into my nightmare
Right here, in front of our eyes?

[Chorus]
'Cause everyone sees right through me
But they only see to my facade
I can deal with ripping apart projections
But can't let them see that I'm flawed
I'd rather break myself to pieces
Than let anyone do it first
I'm drowning myself trying to stay afloat
And dying just brings out my worst
Dying just brings out my worst
Dying just brings out my worst
Oh, dying just brings out my worst

[Bridge]
I don't mean to lash out
I'm out of control
I'm trying to find myself in the traits that I stole
But who am I?
'Cause its taking its toll
Oh, who am i?
'Cause I've gotta know

[Chorus]
'Cause everyone sees right through me
But they only see to my facade
I can deal with ripping apart projections
But can't let them see that I'm flawed
I'd rather break myself to pieces
Than let anyone do it first
I'm drowning myself trying to stay afloat
And dying just brings out my worst