grief rollercoaster

Talk in your slumber
While I do my morning reading
A most intimate occurrence
Funny, you don't remember it
I could watch you rest for hours
And I like our waking life
One day nothing felt much better
No more fight, freeze, fawn - just flight
Grief rollercoaster
When I ask you to come over
Won't know if you'll ever show up
'Til you're climbing in my room
Going off the softest shoulder
My gut felt you pulling over
And it's too late for a u-turn
Tuck and roll right out the car
Stare just like Spencer
Silent just like Liam
Felt my spring going Taurean
You'd think I'm living in hell
Wasn't asking for more from you
I was asking for the minimum
Your apologies seem innocent
But they're flashing exit signs
Grief rollercoaster
When I ask you to come over
Won't know if you'll ever show up
'Til you're climbing in my room
Going off the softest shoulder
My gut felt you pulling over
And it's too late for a u-turn
Tuck and roll right out the car
No, I'm not drowning
It's just sometimes I get lost
Don't recognize all my surroundings
But I know when to stand up
See my patterns all the time
Copy-pasted into signs
No, my history don't repeat
But it sure as hell do rhyme
Grief rollercoaster
When I ask you to come over
Won't know if you'll ever show up
'Til you're climbing in my room
Going off the softest shoulder
My gut felt you pulling over
And it's too late for a u-turn
Tuck and roll right out the car
A fling
Doesn't have to be a bad thing
I just make my own hell
And I'm tired of burning
Didn't fight when it was fleeting
Shouldn't hold on all that tight
Love collecting lifelong lessons
Just like all these breakup songs
A fling
Doesn't have to be a bad thing
I just make my own hell
And I'm tired of burning
Didn't fight when it was fleeting
Shouldn't hold on all that tight
Love collecting lifelong lessons
Just like all these breakup songs