Exit (Inward)

Exit.

I'm sitting

In the waiting room

To find out how the story ends

But I already know the ending

I'm looking at the exit sign

It tempts me

I'm so sick of waiting

I have wasted my days

Under the heaviness of my failures

I look towards the exit

I'm haunted by a familiar ghost

The ghost haunts my thoughts and turns them to truths.

Misery speaks to me

Look into the mirror to find a man

But all I see is a failure.

Staring back

There will be no pain if I dream forever.

Disappear into an endless dream.

Nothing feels like a dream

When reality is a nightmare.

With a familiar ghost

In a crowded room I felt alone

I make the plans to leave

Misery speaks to me.

I look towards the exit

Fear keeps the dream just out of reach

I've dug my grave with my pain

Now fucking let me leave

The misery takes hold

And I lose the strength to speak

The sickness erodes me

I've lost the words

The sadness stole them from

my throat

For the rest of my days

Sadness is all I'll ever know.

Through a plastic gaze

I can see the dream

There's nothing left for me here.

I want to disappear

I suffocate

Breaths slow

My vision begins to fade

The exit just out of reach

I turn the other way.

Why did I choose to stay?