The Letter

Stare at the paper
Wait for the words to come out
My thoughts go numb
It's on the tip of my tongue
I'm dreaming out loud

I look at myself in the mirror
Whisper the words it's time
But the girl looking back at me lights a sad cigarette
And just rolls them baby blue eyes

Go on take a sip
Get a grip
Swallow your pride
How long can I keep it together
When secretly I'm buried alive
I tear up your latest love letter
And cast all my cares to the sea
Make a wish like a penny
And thank all the sweet things the good life once gave to me

Baby, I finally know what to do
Lately there are too many things I can't live up to
I know that you've given me purpose
And maybe that worked for a while
At times you convinced me I'm worthless
But who am I kidding
With this lie that I'm living
We should probably break up for a while

There was a time I saw glitter and gold in the cracks
Of sidewalks and potholes
My dreams and my high hopes
Yeah, I want them back
But all that's left of these letters
In a shoebox under my bed
Yeah, I still smell your skin on my pillow
And your pretty words that messed with my head

Baby, I finally know what to do
Lately there are too many things I can't live up to
I know that you've given me purpose
And maybe that worked for a while
At times you convinced me I'm worthless
But who am I kidding
With this lie that I'm living
We should probably break up for a while

All these letters that you wrote to me
With your big plans and sweet poetry
So much more than just ink and stains on the page
Only left me with one thing to say

Baby, I finally know what to do
Lately there are too many things I can't live up to
I know that you've given me purpose
I guess that was kinda your style
At times you convinced me I'm worthless
But who am I kidding
With this lie that I'm living
And where do I fit in
These boxes I'm ticking
We should probably break up for a while