Maybe I Should?

When I meet my maker
Sell my stuff and show my papers
I want to know just where I stand
When I meet my lover
Leave my life and lose my brothers
I want to know if I got scammed
Call me yo-yo what do I know?
Everytime I crawl out I dive back in
Like the spider that drowns underneath your skin
Then comes up for air
Maybe I should just have stayed down there?
Maybe I should?
When I find that something
I've been finding so hard to find
Will I feel complete?
Or will I feel as empty as the depths of 2020?
I just want to know if I got scammed
Call me yo-yo what do I know?
Everytime I crawl out I dive back in
Like the spider that drowns underneath your skin
Then comes up for air
Maybe I should just have stayed down there?
Maybe I should?
I know that it's not logical
It's something biological
And it always starts this way
I try not to be skeptical
It's written in my chemicals
And it always ends the same
Everytime I crawl out I dive back in
Like the spider that drowns underneath your skin
Then comes up for air
When maybe I should just have stayed down there?
Maybe I should?