Keys To France

After I drop I'm gonna get a couple calls
But in order to clear my mind I got to clear it all
After y'all hear this y'all be better off
When you feeling how I'm feeling hard to stand up tall
So many days I didn't leave my bed at all
Yeah it's hard to clear you mind you take a step you fall
All the problems that we have really could be solved
Perspective is what is missing from us all
I done seen cocaine fiends turn to dope fiends
I done liter Sprite mixed with codeine
I done seen someone crush up four percies
And snort them shits right to the dome piece
And say Brandon without these shits you wouldn't even know me
Fam would be distraught at all the shit that I've seen
I been around a lot of drugs and not involved with them
Cause adding another problem to my life wouldn't be solving them
I done seen my aunt take her life and really fuck it up
Always searching for that high weed just ain't enough
Two kids see their mother off the needle plunge
But looking back maybe she was never loved
And she had no guidance when she was growing up
My dad would say growing up he had his problems shit
Every time I was upset and told my dad he brought his problems in
My dad's a narcissist
And I guess bringing up my shit gives him an out to things he's been internalin
And I hope he knows if he needs someone that I'm there for him
Household so negative it drain my energy
Money hungry family all greed we lacking empathy
Pessimistic shit is gonna be the fucking end of me
Cause if you don't care then just pretend to be
Money can't buy love
Ask my dad if he love me and he said look at stuff that I buy you
Preciate when you pay
Please pay attention to me
When you it feels like you don't care
It feels like you don't care
It makes me feel ashamed
After I drop I'm gonna get a couple calls
But in order to clear my mind I got to clear it all
After y'all hear this y'all be better off
When you feeling how I'm feeling hard to stand up tall
So many days I didn't leave my bed at all
Yeah it's hard to clear you mind you take a step you fall
All the problems that we have really could be solved
Perspective is what is missing from us all
Last winter almost took my life
Honestly if it wasn't for my cousin wouldn't be alive
And it be so hard to make my mother cry
But I really lost it all
I lost my girl my house my passion
Didn't get a call
Made me question if I had any friends that cared at all
Yeah Yeah Yeah
Yeah I've been out the house for like seven months now
And the place that I live ain't a home no more
It's just a place that I'm living
Yeah my siblings went to private school and I know I didn't
And the way they act around me people make me sick and
I'm embarrassed
I know I spend a lot of time alone
Lot of times you want me there I'm a no show
Deep down I'm not busy but I won't go
Go go go
Yeah you know I love you hard
And I know that it's all my fault
I just need to retire my mom
And I swear that I'm working on god
When you hear this
Pick your phone
Give me a call say you love me yeah I need it
Yeah I need it
And I need you
Yeah I need you so bad right now
I love all you guys
I'm going through it