Whatever, I Know

I don't know how it looks from the outside
Can they see how badly I'm shaking?
Does it show, does it show
What we already know
That we're a mere second from breaking?
I don't know how to say what I'm thinking
But I suspect you've already guessed it
There's a point at which pain's unignorably plain
I might as well have confessed it

I know, I know, I know, I know some things can't be forgiven
I know, I know, but I need to start living while there's some living left in me

Whatever it is you want, I can't want it for you
Whatever it is you want, I can't want it for you
Whatever it is you want is something I can't be
Whatever it could have been, it's lost already
Whatever we celebrated with torn confetti
Whatever I promised you, it is no part of me

I don't know how we let it unravel this far
Maybe we gave up resisting
We could have repaired it
If we'd been prepared
But there's no honor left in persisting

I know, I know, I know we've been through this shit before
I know, I know, but I can't carry this burden around any more

Whatever it is you want, I can't want it for you
Whatever it is you want, I can't want it for you
Whatever it is you want is something I can't be
Whatever it could have been, it's lost already
Whatever we celebrated with torn confetti
Whatever I promised you, it is no part of me

I know, I know, statistically speaking, it had to be someone we knew
I know, I know, but that doesn't help when I'm taking my last look at you

I can't want it for you
I can't want it for you
This is something I can't be
Whatever it could have been, it's lost already
Whatever we celebrated with torn confetti
Whatever I promised you, it is no part of me

Whatever we said we'd do, it got complicated
Whatever we promised, we never contemplated
Whatever we planned was time we were never going to see
Whatever we thought we wanted evaporated
Whatever we turned into, it was all I hated
Whatever we thought we knew wasn't true, wasn't you, wasn't me

Whatever it is you want, I can't want it for you
Whatever it is you want, I can't want it for you
Whatever it is you want is something I can't be
Whatever it could have been, it's lost already
Whatever we celebrated with torn confetti
Whatever I promised you, it is no part of me