If You Mean It

I've been searching, searching for a little bit of something
Putting spot fires out that raged inside my head
And at night time, words would come up at me like a snowstorm
When I gripped too tight every one of them would melt
And by morning light that doubtful river was roaring

You’re always alone when you see it
And it's never a lie if you mean it

They tell me everything happens for a reason
That there's some greater plan and that we are all just pawns
I’ve tried so hard but I know that I really don't believe them
‘Cos if we're being played, what are we living for
But you have your ways to try to rest and so do I

You're always alone when you feel it
And it's never a lie if you mean it

I pulled myself up by the bootstraps, every morning I dig in the fields
What's the point of still breaking my back when I produce ever-decreasing yields

Just keep me guessing, lead me to a place I've never been
Where I can sip on wine and laugh until I weep
‘Cos in my estimation this is all we have, all that we can see
If we exhaust ourselves we'll get our proper sleep
And I’ll tell myself I’ll never start giving up for a second

We're always alone when we feel it
It’s never a lie if we mean it