Fading Away

I feel like I’ve been gone for a long time
My body’s present but I cannot find my mind
I used to love feeling everything inside
But I’m afraid the well’s run dry

Every time I get a second to myself
I can’t help but give it up to someone else
My brain is like a cavernous empty shell
And I’m lost inside

What is going on?
Where has my heart gone?
I miss the Sun

I paint a smile on my face, I keep my hands busy
I try to trick myself but I know I am not okay
I’m breaking under the weight, of the guilt filling up my plate
I feel myself fading away

I just wanna be left all alone
Don’t wanna say yes
Don’t wanna say no
Don’t wanna hear a sound anywhere I go
The pain is too much, just let me be alone

It hurts me to stay, it kills me to go
Letting you down, hurts more than you know
And I could never be, all that you want
And it's been tearing me apart

What is going on?
Why am I so numb?
I miss the Sun

I paint a smile on my face, I keep my hands busy
I try to trick myself but I know I am not okay
I’m breaking under the weight, of the guilt filling up my plate
I feel myself fading away

And I know I can't keep living this way
All these sleepless nights and wasted days
I know what's to come if I don't change
I'll soon have faded away

I think of everyone else
But no one's there for me
I've got to love myself
And tell them I am not okay

I'm buried under the shame
And there's nobody else to blame
I feel myself fading away
I won't let myself fade away