Thoughts

I am just wasting my time
Been a while since I smiled
Always acting very happy
But I'm dying inside
My whole life is a lie
And I cry every night
What we hope all along
I'll just follow the light
I don't need no one else
I got here by myself
You think it's the only reason
I'm not crying for help
I am here on my own
No one's calling my phone
I'm surrounded by friends
But I still feel alone

I don't wanna leave bed
Cause i always feel sad
Too much shit in my head
All the things that I said
I am only 15
But I'm thinking bout death
Should be thinking ahead
But my vision is red
I always feel so alone
I never feel like I'm home
It's hard to feel like you are loved
When you're always on your own
I think I'm dying real soon
Feel happy once a blue moon
I'm never leaving my room
Just let me sleep over noon

I am just wasting my time
Been a while since I smiled
Always acting very happy
But I'm dying inside
My whole life is a lie
And I cry every night
What we hope all along
I'll just follow the light
I don't need no one else
I got here by myself
You think it's the only reason
I'm not crying for help
I am here on my own
No one's calling my phone
I'm surrounded by friends
But I still feel alone