Feeling So Bad

I don't need you but
I don't wanna lose everything we ever had so
What can we do
When it hurts so good but I'm feeling so bad oh

Every time we talk you keep pushing to the back
Told me take a walk take a hike and after that
Go and find somebody else to keep you under wraps
Cause I'm needing someone too
Hoping they can make me laugh
Like you never could
I'm understanding like I never should
Keep trusting anyone to keep the good
Can't stand the pressure like I thought you could no

That's why I'm closing all the doors showing no remorse
I don't wanna risk that
Said I need it more open arms of course
I don't wanna think back

I just wanna give you everything when the cash flow
Even if I'm acting like a straight up fucking asshole
It's only just temporary like your love it's getting scary
Lemme go and take a breather I know I ain't getting neither
I just wanna go and whip up in a beamer
I just wanna go and sign me to the reaper so the stars blow
Said that you'd be going with me so wherever I go
I'll be having angels on my shoulder when my mind snows