Got What I Deserved

The smell of coffee, the smell of you
The jungle fever, the old perfume
The memories, I keep for you
The satin shoulders, the crystal dew
You save for someone, only God knows who
My slice of heaven is just a memory
Oh I'm so lonely but it's how I wanna be
If I could kill you, you know I would
But that would alter the neighborhood

I got your letter, the picture of your smile
I'm not your lover, not even for a while
The things that happened, I got what I deserved
'cuz i was evil, got the Devil on my nerves
I ate the mushrooms, I licked the pie
I stole the moment, I stole your eyes
I was a monster, I was a bad man
I was a killer, I took your hand
I was only looking for a girl to understand
My foolish weakness, my evil way
Fatal attractions, they come my way
I'm like a child, a little boy
I'm like a baby without a toy

This is my story, I'll never be a man
Sometimes I'm ashamed when I see what I am
My life is hopeless, my dreams are real
You say I'm crazy but I know what I feel
I got the sickness, I know there ain't no cure
I'm gonna die from it, that's one thing that's for sure
I'm getting paranoid, I'm senile with a smile
The mirror tells me how i look like Oscar Wilde
A poets glory, the final hour
Mission accomplished, the crumbling tower

This world is ending, no reason to delay
I wrote the ending I no longer wanna play
With ankle bracelets or Sally Mae
This is the ending, this is my final day
My slice of heaven is just a memory
Oh I'm so lonely but it's how I wanna be
If I could kill you, you know I would
But that would alter the neighborhood

I stole the moment, I stole your eyes
I was a monster, I was a bad man
I was a killer, I took your hand
I was only looking for a girl to understand