Fall Back

I'm a house made of glass when it's hailing
I'm a plane when the engines are failing
Skyfall into stormy seas
You say you don't want that for me
I'm the air that you've started exhaling
I'm a train on the verge of derailing
I'm about to soar off the tracks
But I can't ever admit that

So why
Why do I bend the truth, say I'm done with
You lie
I'd stop if I could but that's what I'm wired to
Do I
Hate myself or hate the place my heart is at
But I couldn't ever say that, so I fall back

I could say that love you and mean it
But you'll twist up my words 'til I'm bleeding
Why am I so terrified
Of seeing myself through your eyes
Now, I'm not perfect, but damnit, I'm healing
But all this head over heart is deceiving
War between body and soul
But you're all that I've ever known

So, baby, can you tell me why
Why do I bend the truth, say I'm done with
You lie
I'd stop if I could but that's what I'm wired to
Do I
Hate myself or hate the place my heart is at
But I couldn't ever say that, so I fall back

So why
Why do I mend the wound, stitch it up if
You lie
Like you don't give a fuck, 'cause that's what you're wired to
Do I
Want you or just want the way that you attach
'Cause I can't love someone like that
But I fall back