Dementia

Dementia essentially the things that make
Us higher thinking beings
Our memory, our way of
Calculating, of planning, Language
They are degenerating
Dementia is anything which is
Affecting the brain and
The loss of function of the brain
In such a way that the things that
We normally take for granted for example
Our ability to remember things, times, dates
Events to place ourselves in a
Location, to use words, To use language
All of these things begin to disappear

Mama didn't plan me, that felt really weird
Then she birthed a nigga, daddy disappeared
Universe was with us, glad I'm living here
Through the dirt we live
Lord had to interfere
Doing work he moving bourbon
To pursue a cooler
Dirt to sit in that is really clear
You revert then leave 'em
Back to this career
Didn't recognize her, had it been a year
Mama sacrificed to have a living here
Went through many troubles as
A kid she feared
Nightmares on the daily, that's my mental
Yeah speaking on me dying as an infant tears
Running down her face while
Judges count the days
I'm shackled in the courtroom
Asking them to hear
My plea to tell 'em that I'm sane
But they don't feel the same
Because of how I act, the end is near
Banging, slanging plus we strap
The pistol here
Do a bunch of drugs, had my memory cleared
If these straps I'll blackout
Mad and then appear
Been a King but never had a Gwynevere
I forgot it all, blast it with the fear
Had a baby made the facts so crystal clear
Master what I'm speaking grab a engineer
Give it to the world but as I give it here
Know my brain is sick
Ain't had a freaking cure
Medication had me acting insecure
Made a rap and fucking had to get some gear
Looking in the mirror: that's
My biggest fear
Dancing with the devil ask and he'll appear
Spell out "He'll appear" that
Shit really weird scared to lose myself god
Asking if you'll steer
Hell and Heaven point like
That's each hemisphere
And as my memory clears

I don't wanna lose part of me
(Dementia made me lose it)
Will I cover that broken piece
(Man this is so confusing)
Stay bold, embody me, hurt the feelings
(Got so inflicted in the music)
But this is more than music

Searching for a purpose
It can get really hard
If you make it that way and
Then forget who you are
To find our self we take trips from afar
I went through dark matters just
To live with the stars
My stomach is a compass
I encompass what it means
I wanna see my destiny fulfill
The window's ajar
I'm a caterpillar in it then
I went for a walk
Penned my situation and flew
Like Kendrick Lamar
Damn, ask yourself: is this who you are?
Situational relationship
Your friends or your job?
A diagnosis givin' your addiction a cause
Go places evil waiting see
Your kids have revolved
Don't wanna fear who you are
Your religion is fraud and you
Live what you are
So you sit in the dark with
A bunch of sickening thoughts
And when they give up it all but
Would you lose everything homie
Then you evolve am I a criminal? No
But the prison it caused
Though my memory's lost i remember the wall
While fulfilling the dream I
Forget that I fall
But I'm still on a seam where
The shit had to start
Y'all did this to me then I did it to y'all
Right ear's what it's in
You know how it is but you wrong
Cause I revisit the screams
Blood spilled down the wall
Now I'm numb to those things
I can't feel anymore
Are you hearin' me lord?
I'm not here anymore
Then what I wanna be but I feel you ignore
Brain in a white cube more
Than ceiling and floor
Boxed in but that's what the
Fifth dimension is for
I know it's way more than a physical form
Listen my realm can never
Coexist with the norm i swear I met the old
Me in the continuum path
I said don't forget me, dementia ain't long
This how it feels to be lost

I don't wanna lose part of me
(Dementia made me lose it)
Will I cover that broken piece
(Man this is so confusing)
Stay bold, embody me, hurt the feelings
(Got so inflicted in the music)
But this is more than music

Somebody with dementia any
Particular Alzheimer's disease
These pathways will be severally interrupted
And what's happening is where there'll be
A normal healthy pathway too
Store or retrieve inflation elements of this
Pathway are lost and the
Cells are not working as well
As they should so therefore
When we try and store information the
Ability too store it may be
Lost and therefore when we kept
Also when we come to
Retrieve that information we may not be
Able to store it properly
Or we that just maybe able
To access that information