Dwell

I started to lose my momentum and now I am fearing I'm slowing way down to a halt
I tried to prevent 'em from comin' but never succeeded, it's nobody's fault
Memories keepin' me tied down, takin' my crown, while I bow down
To the vicious and cyclical mindset, I'm sick of this, I don't wanna drown
Maybe I could just take pills every day
Maybe I could just drink till it goes away
I'm looking for answers but can't find a thing
So maybe I'll live, what can I say
I'll live with the problems and take an L
I wanted to solve 'em but oh well
I dealt with this shit for my whole fuckin' life
And I've managed to live, no need to dwell
Remember the shit that you said
Back when you'd wish to be dead
All the bad shit, when you'd throw a fit
'Bout your sanity and you'd wanna quit?
Yeah, that's all a big lie
See your own mind got Shang hai'd
You were so blind, on the wrong grind
From a monster, say goodbye
Bitch, I ain't ever gonna take this shit anymore oh and especially coming from you
I don't even wanna take a good look at your face, I guess a mugshot will do
You're as good as dead to me, you might as well call this a eulogy
You step to me, like it's meant to be, but I see through who you pretend to be
You're nothin' but scum, totally numb, you loved me? So fucking dumb
You've beaten, berated, and ambushed, and you got me. You were damn good
I've already moved on, yet you're movin' on a little criminal
I moved up when I moved out, your absence is medicinal
What am I doing wrong
Its been like this for so long
I get beat down, looking like a clown
Then I come back to the rebound
I'm losing my sanity
From all off this calamity
Man, who am I? Haven't got a clue
Welp, this is reality
I started to lose my momentum and now I am fearing I'm slowing way down to a halt
I tried to prevent 'em from comin' but never succeeded, it's nobody's fault
Memories keepin' me tied down, takin' my crown, while I bow down
To the vicious and cyclical mindset, I'm sick of this, I don't wanna drown
Maybe I could just take pills every day
Maybe I could just drink till it goes away
I'm looking for answers but can't find a thing
So maybe I'll live, what can I say
I'll live with the problems and take an L
I wanted to solve 'em but oh well
I dealt with this shit for my whole fuckin' life
And I've managed to live, no need to dwell