Valentine's Day (Shameful)

Torn between crying for help
And not letting them see me sweat
But it's certain shit I can't forget
I won't get over it easy
Shit makes me queasy
I am making amends with myself
Forgiving me for loving you
I took a risk loving loudly
Defended you proudly
Ignored all the signs, yeah it's true

And, the immature me
Wishes that I could make it known
That you should be left alone
Don't deserve words or thoughts from me
I can go heal on my own

And, the immature me
Hopes the world sees just who you are, uh
A facade only gets you so far
And I'm bigger than you
So I can't meet you where you are

I'd say your name but you don't deserve recognition
You played the hero but you really are the villain
There ain't a bone in me that wants to spare your feelings
You called me crazy, but it was my intuition
Used me for status and the fame and recognition
It's fucking crazy what they do for recognition
I'd say your name but you don't deserve recognition
I'd say your name but I won't, uh

I gotta give myself credit
For loving as hard as I did
I helped you fight your addiction
And change your whole life
Just to find myself played in the end
Ain't no regrets 'cause I'm proud
That my heart was so pure
And I'm never ashamed of my love
Now I'm finding strength in the fact
That you're nothing to me
And I know the things I am above

And, the immature me wishes I could just run away
To somewhere I still feel sane
'Cause truth is I've been fucking lost since that very day
And, really I'm wishing that I
Could just catch a break
It's been hell every couple days
And now I'm here broken expected to carry the weight

I'd say your name but you don't deserve recognition
You played the hero but you really are the villain
There ain't a bone in me that wants to spare your feelings
You called me crazy, but it was my intuition
Used me for status and the fame and recognition
It's fucking crazy what they do for recognition
I'd say your name but you don't deserve recognition
I'd say your name but I won't, uh

That's just you (deserve recognition)

I always land on my feet
Bounce back game clean and neat, whoa (whoa)
Wish I didn't check your text when you was drunk 'sleep
I seen everything that I ain't wanna see
That I needed to see
That I needed it to be

Hope you live happily ever after with the bitch
Fly to France wine and crackers
Honeymooning with the bitch
Hope you fuck around and have the son you wanted with the bitch

Y'all might be soulmates after all of this
So out on the table
Your friends and your family, even your label
Everyone loved me, damn it's so shameful
I kept you stable, you should be grateful
Ain't find out sooner that you was unfaithful
Damn, you're so shameful
So fucking shameful
Damn you're so, uh

Fucking ungrateful, uh